gonna be crrrraazayy

school started fortnight ago
first day? erm we had to sit on floor since our class had no tables and chairs
but then we got it at last
but the following day, two classes combined and we study in bio lab
i hate it. no one likes it, i suppose.
the class has more than 50 students
crap.!
form 4.? 4sc1.? no honeymoon year.?
yes that are all facts for science students.

by the way. i have seen him, finally
i.. i don't know. i am confused
his response towards me make my confused
i am now in dilemma
God is playing fools with me, i seriously never want to be in such situation

well about prefects stuff
teacher appoints me to be h.p assistant
i had never dreamed of it
i have to be more responsible

i have tuition later on
bm and add maths
ah ya. ADD MATHS
i love it as it's challenging

forgotten

your shadow has become blurry, unclear in my mind
it has started to fade.
i think i still can grin and smile at you when we meet.
10 weeks has gone and i have forgotten about all those shits.
thank God.
you have your own life and i have my own mission
we are different. yes everyone is different
but the difference between you and me is enormous
too huge, too big
until i am not suitable for you and you are not my ideal one
i am still very grateful that you told me the truth
otherwise i would be like a fool
some say. you played with my feelings
but does it matter now?
not anymore. you are nothing to me anymore.
thank you for your lies and your truth.

scho.Ol

will be back to school soon
i can't sleep at 4am and wake up at 1pm anymore
i have to change my daily routine
starting from today.
and ya, i have to wash my shoes, my black shoes for school
it had been unwashed for about two years, since the day i bought it
heehee =P
last year was stressful, busy, depressed
PMR was fearsome
my pathetic shoes are now 'whitish-black', full of dust
i have to clean it, today!

Lieya and Pury want to lose wieght
me too.
but it seems no one will support me (except mages)
you will say "you are so skinny"
no! i m not.
no doubt that my weight matches my height
and my BMI is in the underweight category
but i dislike the weight figure
i hate myself for eating
i wanna lose weight.
it's one of my plan for 2010.
o.O